I'll be back on the grid in a couple of days...

But first some poetry (That I did not write)


Who are we but strolling players,
Wand'ring through the long ago,
Joys and sadness, hopes and longings,
Keep us traveling onward though
The laughter and applause of others,
Who view the passing cavalcade,
Leave echoes hovering some far summer,
Floating round a woodland glade.
'Twas but a tale for your amusement,
Like my small unworthy rhyme,
Gone, alas, into those realms,
The land of once upon a time.



The Kid
~Platinum

Rawr

RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sorry I'm kind of mad right now for reasons I will go into sometime tomorrow maybe.
Also, Big Brother, I will get back to you on your message sometime tomorrow as well. Expect an email. Now is not the time.

The Kid
~Platinum

As a forewarning

I'm going to spend a lot of time off the grid this summer so I won't be posting too often. If I do, hopefully it'll be either a large or good update. We'll see how I stick to this.
And no, it's not because I'm getting tired of this or that I don't like blogspot or anything I just want to spend this summer centering myself.
And playing video games.
XP.

The Kid
~Platinum

Girls. All I really want is girls. And in the morning its... well, you get the idea.

For some reason, I really want to update, but there isn't really much that's thoughtful that I want to say. So, I'm going to talk about girls for a quick bit. I know, I talk about them alot, but we'll get to that in a minute.
So, recently- as in, in the past five minutes- I realized that my prospects for playing the game aren't very large. I've met my group of friends pretty much, and my interaction with freshmen will be limited outside of track given my major/minor and I don't know anyone at home. So at this point, I'm kind of down. Bleh.
So now you're probably thinking, okay, get to why you talk about girls so much. Well here you go.
I really want someone to be here for me, all the time. I've explained ideal traits before, so I won't go over them again, but you know, a girl who'll motivate me to do stuff and just be generally good for me. I have my friends who help now somewhat to be sure, but I really want someone who I know cares about me and who's good for me. Not just the other way around like it's been in the past.
Also, I want someone to rub my tummy, which as you all should know by now, I love.
And my lack of success this year has just given me a kind of bleak outlook for the future.

Also, as an aside, I tend to complain about a lot of stuff- in real life, and in this blog. Your best bet is to just process it and throw it out. It's harmless really, just me venting my feelings. Which, I suppose is what this thing is for.

Also also, thank you to everyone who has started a blog that I now subscribe to. You've made my time here on blogspot much more enjoyable. Also, now that I have stuff to read I will be visiting blogspot more often, and thus be more prone to updating. Thus, everyone wins!

The Kid
~Platinum

As an addendum to the last post, I would absolutely love it if any of you would comment on either this post or the last post with your reasons- and I mean really think about your REAL reasons- for your need to get good grades/ study all the time. If you don't want to, then that's perfectly understandable. Just throwing it out there as an interest of mine.

The Kid
~Platinum

At the library... again

So, I'm back at the library and once again I'm blogging before I do anything. I'm not sure why but when I get here I just feel compelled to blog about something. It just feels like a good way to start a stay at the library. I feel that this might become a habit. But we'll have to wait until next year to see I guess, especially considering there are only two days left. Two! I absolutely, 100% cannot believe I'm already done with freshman year. There's so much left for me to accomplish. So many people I haven't yet met. So many places to go and things to visit. I think I'm going to need to make myself a list for next year and tape it to my wall. That way, I'll know what I want to do and I can cross things off as I go. I think what this is really telling me is that I need to be more organized overall. While I'm happy with pretty much everything that went down this year, I really wish I had been more organized. But now I know what I need to do in order to achieve that goal, so I guess its not a total loss.
I'm once again really lacking in the motivation department today. There's just no incentive for me to stare at endless lists of practice physics problems. It doesn't seem like it could be all that helpful. I know that it will in fact be, especially given the style of the final and that I haven't looked at a physics problem in like 3 weeks and can't remember a damn thing. But still, right now it just doesn't seem worth it.
I wonder if it will ever seem worth it or if I'll just look back and say "Damn, why didn't I do better in college? What am I gonna do with myself now?"
Morbid I know, but it really seems that way sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy with B's- but grad schools aren't. Which is terrible really, because B is supposed to still be "above average." And with rampant grade inflation across basically every subject everywhere, it really makes me wonder why we try for grades at all. I really wish school focused on learning rather than earning. I understand that tests and homework are there in theory to see if we're learning but thats not really how it works, let's be honest. Grades are just arbitrary letters handed out, they're rarely earned.
So what I want is for everyone I know, and for the system in general, to just take a deep breath and relax. Grades are not the be all end all of life. There are so many more important things we could be learning right now. But instead we're stuck being threatened with "bad" grades to pressure us into studying. And for what?
Ask yourself that. Maybe you'll justify this endless pursuit in some way or maybe you'll start to understand what the system is really like. I leave that choice up to you- but please, please- just relax for once. B's aren't bad grades and C's won't kill anyone.
Breathe in.
Breathe out.

The Kid.
~Platinum.

Fighters

When the fighters are all around
All the lovers are underground
No one will save you anymore
So what's happening, what you rapping about?
little boy. Is it cars? Is it girls? Is it money?
The world?

Most of you are probably familiar with these lyrics by now because of me, and if you aren't familiar with all of them then you should definitely be familiar with the last three lines.
They're from the song 'Fighters' by Lupe Fiasco, my favorite rapper. If you've never heard the song, then I suggest you youtube it. Or network it. And all Lupe's Music.
Anyway, you're probably wondering why I always use this song.
And honestly, I can't really say. What I can say, is that this song just really makes me think alot about what I want. While I'm not rapping, it helps me think about whats going on in my life and where I'm trying to go. Maybe it won't do the same thing for you, but I suggest you give it a try.

The Kid
~Platinum