On the Grid

I know that I said I'd be more on the Grid come June, and here we are almost halfway through and that has not happened at all. I am a dirty dirty liar, I know.
However, lately- as in the past two weeks- there have been a few legitimate reasons. First, I've been working a lot lately, at least, a lot more than when I started and more than I thought I would be. I even start doing catered events which means I'll be working even more. Higher wages is a plus though, and I can't complain about making money. I do love me some money.
The other reason, and probably the more important reason, is that I've been having a lot of girl problems lately. Sure it makes me thoughtful, but it doesn't exactly put me in a very sharing mood.
When I say "girl problems," I really just mean problems with one girl in particular who I like. We were kind of at a stand still in the whole relationship thing, stuck in the "dating" phase and not really able to move into the "relationship" phase. But, that changed tonight, cause I finally convinced her to give it a try. I'd rather find out it won't work now, instead of waiting for her to finally decide to start something, only to find out it won't work out. So, all in all, I guess I'm glad.
Now you might think, woah woah woah. You guess you're glad?
And I say, yea, guess. I care about her a lot, and I'm glad we're giving it a shot but I'm just really nervous about how its all going to work out. It's been a while since my last relationship, and this one is going to take a lot of maintenance and I'm just afraid I'm gonna fuck it all up. I've got the new bf jitters I guess. Plus if we do make it through the summer, I have no idea whats gonna happen when I have to go back to school. She's stuck in DE, and I don't know how I feel about a long distance relationship. Not right now at least.

I'll get more in depth with all this later. Right now, I need to talk to the best friend.