I'm not going to sugar coat it- right now, I pretty much hate my life. All I have going for me is my relationship with Baby Bear, which is really helping to keep me afloat. I know that part seems less than enthusiastic, which I apologize for-I'm just really pissed and venting, but it really is true. Believe me, if I had the ability to actually generate praise or positive comments right now I'd write you a novella. You're my everything. I need you to be here for me. Thank you for doing that.
However, aside from that, my life here at school is crashing around me. I'm horribly dissatisfied with my major and I'm unable to switch because one of the professors is being a complete idiot about it. I'm trying to switch from Physics to Astronomy and I want to class which I lack the pre-req for next semester so that I'm not a complete year behind. In order to do this I need approval from the teacher. Here's what she said
I've consulted with others here in Astronomy, and the recommendation
for you is to wait until next year and then take ASTR 221 and ASTR 222
in the required order. As I've mentioned to you, I've never had such
a case, and from the rate examples of students doing this in the past,
the experience has not been positive - i.e it was strong students who
ended up having difficulties with the class.
So despite the fact that my case is unique, apparently I cant take the class because I'm destined to fail or something. I have no idea what the last phrase is even trying to say. Also, I cant take my japanese class because it doesnt fit in with my schedule for my other physics courses which I'm now stuck taking. Beyond that I cant take a required physics lab because I will also inherently fail that, even though in that case, there is no pre-req. So basically I only have 3 classes for next semester and I need at least 5. Also, I'm done my gen. ed requirements and I lack the requirements for any of the more advanced physics classes that I could possibly take. Therefore I pretty much have to take two classes which will benefit me in no way, shape or form. Not to mention I cant take astr 221 or the other physics lab because they're only offered in the fall. This is not what I want to be doing with my life. I'm not here to waste my time or (luckily, since this isnt the case for most I hear) my parents money. I'm here to learn and to get a degree so I can get out and go to grad school. Instead I've been trapped by an archaic system and now I'm pretty much destined to go 5 years whether I like it or not because now I just can't catch up.
I had a plan, to get out of something that I really wasn't enjoying and try and turn my experience at school back around- to become excited again. Instead I've been fucked over and left feeling less enthusiastic than I've ever been before. If you've got any advice, words of sympathy or just feel like telling me to grow up then I'd love to hear them.
Also, as a word of caution, this is really just me putting down my frustrations on a pseudo-anonymous website. Will I be okay in a couple days or even tomorrow? Yea, probably. But right now, I couldn't be less enthusiastic about pretty much anything. I just need an escape and this is a pretty good route right now.
The Kid
~Platinum
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1 comment:
that prof. sounds like a lovely person. :/
That really sucks--can you talk to a dean?
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