Not really though, I'm actually shooting for four. Enough with the silliness. Down to business. Not that I can really conduct business through a blog that no one reads... but I digress. However, some of the time, I do wish more people followed this blog. I'm not really sure why. Just knowing that someone, even if they're a completely random person, can see what i'm thinking and maybe commiserate in anyway is just sort of comforting. Its an odd feeling.
Anyway, there's a more important reason I'm here, honest. This is the time where we talk about my favorite topic. Girls. XD
Yesterday, a friend of mine's girlfriend and I were looking through my fb pictures because I was showing her a funny picture of me from like 5 years ago. My ex-girlfriend was in the picture, and she really hasn't changed much in appearance from then till now. So, after I mentioned who the girl was, my friends girlfriend remarked that I could do much better.
And that got me thinking. See, there's this girl that I thought I maybe liked, but I wasn't too sure, and plus the year is ending in like 10 days, so I'm not going to start anything now. I'm kind of on the downswing with her for various reasons, but after she said that I started thinking. And I realized maybe I'm just settling for someone that's in front of me and available. But maybe next year, I wont have to. I certainly shouldn't have to. I realized a couple days ago that what i really want is a girl who is in a class above me. I have one in mind, sure- she's on the track team with me so it's not like she doesn't know I exist. While nothing can obviously start this year, I'm hopeful about next year. And even if it isnt with her, I still want to try and find that girl that I won't have to settle for. The type of girl that I'm trying to find is hard to describe without just sounding really shallow. I'm not saying that I want to find the really popular type that are gorgeous, but carry the rest of the stigma associated. I'm talking about a beautiful girl with a good, likeable personality who is good for me. And frankly, right now I kind of feel like thats what I deserve after all this time. I'm going to be good for any girl I date, thats just how I am, but this time around I want a girl thats going to be good for me, and to have everything I'm looking for.
A tall order? To be sure. But I'm oddly optomistic about this whole endeavour. I'm not entirely sure why either. I think part of it is because now I know what I want in a girl. I've always had a general idea, but now there's this concrete idea that I've got and I guess its just nice to know what I'm looking for. However, to catch this kind of girl, I'm going to have to start to be more assertive and a lot less shy.
But I've got all summer to work on that. It's going to be a fun time getting back into the game, let me tell you.
The Kid
~Platinum.
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