The Intro

Hello to anyone out there who reads this. I'm not exactly expecting a stellar following through any of this great experience. But let's go over the basics, shall we? Stuff like who I am, why I'm here, what I'll be saying, who'll I'll be referring to, etc. You'll catch on soon enough I suppose.
So... here goes

To start, I guess you can call me The Kid- but don't worry, I'll stick to first person. I'm a freshman in college, which will (depending on how you look at it) sadly, go unnamed. I'll probably be referring to this as "The School." I run track. Actually, I do field. I'm a pole vaulter. It's beyond fun, and, coincedentally, I am a huge fan of dirty jokes because pole vaulting is in fact one big sexual joke. Also, I'm playing Ice Hockey for The School too. Its only a club team, so I can do both. But practice is keeping me beyond busy. And last but not least I'll tell you for now that I'm a Physics Major. Crazy, neh? So I've been told.

Why have I started this? I feel that's an important question to answer before I actually get going explaining anything else. After all, you should probably ask yourself why are you here? At this blog I mean, I won't quite be getting that philosophical yet. But I digress.
In my freshman Writing/English seminar course (you know the ones that are all the rage now? they teach incoming freshman how to write?) we just had a unit on blogging and I wondered what it would be like to actually keep one. I wanted to know not just what it felt like to keep a blog, but also to be able to speak my mind whenever I wanted, for anyone interested to see. It's a cathartic exercise. I'm always telling myself I should be writing my thoughts down, just to get them out but I never do. I'm terrible at bottling up my feelings. But, here I am.
This should help.
Moving on.

What will I be saying? Pretty much anything that comes to mind. This is after all my blog. Some of this stuff may be deep, or may be superficial, I'm not really sure. I hope to have a healthy mix of both. The goings on of my life mixed in with my own musings on life.

So you're up to speed on names, here's who I'll probably be referring to often:

The Girl (I'll probably be talking about her alot)- The Girl doesn't actually exist yet, she's more of an abstract concept that represents the girl I'd like to meet and date. I'm terribly obsessed with finding The Girl, so I'll probably be discussing Her alot.
Right now, I have one in mind but I'm not so sure she knows I exist as more than just an entity she's sees every other day. We'll see how it goes. I'll keep you informed I'm sure. If I do ever find The Girl then she'll shift from a concept to a concrete object. But for now, she only exists in the realm of my dreams.

The Best Friend (I'll come up with an abbreviation at some point I'm sure)- This name speaks for itself. He's my best friend from high school- one of my only friends from high school actually. Unfortunately, he goes to another college, but we still keep in touch. I miss him alot. I'll probably be talking about him alot to.

The Fraternity- My fraternity here at college. No I will not be naming which one. Identity protection and all that jazz.

The Big Brother/ The Big- My big brother in my fraternity. He's basically the big brother I've always wanted. He's an awesome guy.

The Roommate- My roommate. We get along pretty well but I've got some stuff to say about him. We'll get to that eventually.

The Surrogate Roommate- A kid I've become very good friends with in my short time at college. He's practically my surrogate roommate and he's also my brother in The Fraternity. We're very different, its an interesting mix.


For now, I think that is everyone in the cast of characters that I'd like to introduce. There are more for sure, but I'll cover them another time. And as a sidenote, uncapitilized names are minor players in the days news. Maybe they'll be cool enough to get real nicknames one day.

So, I've covered what I said I would for today. Where do I go from here? I'm new to this game, and so therefore I'm not so sure. Let's see where my thoughts take me...

I think I need to rationalize my pseudo obsession with "The Girl."
You ever read Chobits? You remember the person just for me books that Chi reads? For me its almost like that.
I'm looking for the person just for me, and I've termed her The Girl. I even refer to her in conversation as such with The Surrogate Roommate. He laughs- says I'm crazy. I laugh too. After all, I'm just a teenager, why should I be so obsessed with finding the right girl for me?
A) I have a long life ahead of me
B) I'm going to be meeting a lot more girls in that span of time

But regardless of those two very compelling reasons, The Girl is still on my mind alot. I want someone to be there for me, to listen to my problems, to console me, to laugh at my jokes and tell me ones that are just as stupid. Maybe thats part of the reason why I'm here now. Maybe you're taking the role of The Girl (without any of the benefits) and I'm just too stubborn to actually admit it. I don't really know. But what I do know is that I'm concerned that I won't ever find The Girl. That I'll look and she'll never appear, or worse that I'll see her, but I won't realize she's The Girl until its too late.
Which brings me to my current situation. There is a girl that I sometimes feel I want to pursue. Sometimes I'm not sure though. I don't exactly have a lot of time for girls and therefore I dont really know if I want to engage in the pursuit. But when I think like that it makes me think that maybe I'm going to lose her, and then how would I ever know if the pursuit was worth it? It's a daily struggle. Sometimes I feel like she isn't right for, or that I'm not right for her and that I should just drop it. But then, how would I know. Maybe she's perfect for me and I just don't know it yet.
I hope to find out one day.
Maybe that day is sometime soon. Maybe its far off in the future.
I'll keep you posted on that and other things. Let's see where this glorious adventure takes me...

"The Kid"
~Platinum