I was going to make a big end of 2008 post but our power went out multiple times today so I didn t really get around to it, and now its like 11:55, so I'm not really going to get that.
As an aside though, because there's a commercial about her on TV right now, I have to say, Miley Cyrus is freaking hot. Seriously though, she's attractive.
Anyway, at some point tomorrow I'm going to make a big post about resolutions, and my plans for the new year, all that jazz. So, until tomorrow, and well, next year I guess.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
So I lied... sort of
Okay, new plan, I'm going to bed by midnight at the latest so I can get out of here really early to get my shopping done. It should work.... maybe...
One more in the books
Well, its 9:45 now and I have yet to play any Okami for the day. Maybe I'll start at like 11 but once I'm done this I want to work on a WH 40K campaign. I got the campaign book a while ago and I haven't gotten much use out of it so far, so i figured now would be a good time to write something up and then use it at school. I'll rope The Surrogate Roommate into it somehow, but I need like two more players. I'll find them somehow. Maybe The Surrogate Roommate will have to play like 4 characters I dunno. I've never DM'ed before so it'll be an interesting first time. And the system's totally different so we'll have to see how it goes. I'm excited though, so it should be fun.
Right now, I'm engaging in a family tradition: watching White Christmas. Which we do often. Very often. I think I've seen this movie like 40 times by now. My step brother estimates having seen it like 500 times in the 21 years of his life. Thats crazy. However, I totally believe it. We all wait and watch it after Thanksgiving dinner. Its like the first thing we do after eating. After that we see it at Thanksgiving someone watches it at least once a week, and we watch it like 10 or 15 times the actual week of Christmas. So yea, we've seen it alot.
On the bad news side, I'm not done shopping for Christmas. T-T *cries* I still need something for my Dad, Step-Dad and something for my Grandparents. I have no idea what I'm going to be getting them but I figure I'll go to Border's. Usually I can find pretty much anything I want there so it should be fine. Parking and checking out however will be a complete and royal bitch.
Joy of joys.
I miss the Lady Friend. She went away for break and I only got to see her once and I've realized that I really like her. I've also realized that because of the distance there's really no chance for the two of us. We talked it out and we both pretty much came to the same conclusion. We did however decide that we'd see how the second semester went for both of us and that over the summer there'd be plenty of time for us to reconnect and consider a relationship. I don't really know how I feel about that. All I know is that I'm really going to miss her come leaving time.
On a completely different note, I am really looking forward to playing Persona 4. I have no idea what its really about, all I know is that I really want to play it. That and the new Castlevania game. I WANT TO PLAY.
However, I think this has been a good entry for the day, so I'm going to go read up on my 40K lore to put together a super awesome campaign! So, until tomorrow, peace.
The Kid
~Platinum
Right now, I'm engaging in a family tradition: watching White Christmas. Which we do often. Very often. I think I've seen this movie like 40 times by now. My step brother estimates having seen it like 500 times in the 21 years of his life. Thats crazy. However, I totally believe it. We all wait and watch it after Thanksgiving dinner. Its like the first thing we do after eating. After that we see it at Thanksgiving someone watches it at least once a week, and we watch it like 10 or 15 times the actual week of Christmas. So yea, we've seen it alot.
On the bad news side, I'm not done shopping for Christmas. T-T *cries* I still need something for my Dad, Step-Dad and something for my Grandparents. I have no idea what I'm going to be getting them but I figure I'll go to Border's. Usually I can find pretty much anything I want there so it should be fine. Parking and checking out however will be a complete and royal bitch.
Joy of joys.
I miss the Lady Friend. She went away for break and I only got to see her once and I've realized that I really like her. I've also realized that because of the distance there's really no chance for the two of us. We talked it out and we both pretty much came to the same conclusion. We did however decide that we'd see how the second semester went for both of us and that over the summer there'd be plenty of time for us to reconnect and consider a relationship. I don't really know how I feel about that. All I know is that I'm really going to miss her come leaving time.
On a completely different note, I am really looking forward to playing Persona 4. I have no idea what its really about, all I know is that I really want to play it. That and the new Castlevania game. I WANT TO PLAY.
However, I think this has been a good entry for the day, so I'm going to go read up on my 40K lore to put together a super awesome campaign! So, until tomorrow, peace.
The Kid
~Platinum
Monday, December 22, 2008
I do actually care... I'm just lazy
The title expresses a large number of my feelings towards my blog. I really do care, I'm just very very lazy. For instance, I really want to have played a large part of the way through the Playstation 2 game Okami by now. Instead, I've mostly just sat around watching tv and reading books so far over break.
Don't get me wrong its been fun, I just haven't really done what I wanted to do. And tomorrow I'm going back to my high school and then I've got a doctor's appointment. Joy of joys! So I wont have done any of what I wanted to do by 4 oclock tomorrow. Which really sucks. However, after I'm done this entry I will in fact be playing me some Okami.
Another reason why I really want to be playing Okami, or any video game for that reason is because I asked for alot of games for Christmas, particularly RPG's and I really want to beat the ones I'm playing in order to start the new ones. Like Persona 4 and Odin Sphere. Both of which are long games. What else.... all the devil may cry's except 4, Chrono Trigger, Luminous Arc 2, and I know there are still like 2 I'm forgetting.
So basically, what I'm saying is- I have a ton of fucking video games to play.
Specifically, before break ends I want to get like halfway through Okami, I want to beat Final Fantasy XII which I'm like halfway through, but I have a guide, so that won't be hard and I'm on the Final Boss in Final Fantasy X, so I should definitely be able to beat that before break ends.
So basically, FFXII and FFX will be easy to beat... Okami not so much.
But enough of video games, on to more... philosophical things. Heh heh, philosophical. We'll go with that.
So today I realized that I do some of my best thinking in the shower. Which I thought about in the shower. I also realized that if I do serious thinking in the shower, I take long-ass showers. Incredibly long showers. Also, I do some of my best thinking before I fall asleep at night. Maybe I won't be playing Okami tonight, maybe I'll just go think. Especially since its getting late.
Also, for the future, if I ever change my mind mid-blog again, its because it takes me awhile to write these things, so usually I'll change my mind a few times while writing an entry.
I wish something good where on tv right now, because then I'd actually be awake and into it, instead I'm feeling kind of lethargic and uncaring. My desire to do anything worthwhile has pretty much followed suit over the past few days. I don't mind sitting around reading but I just wish I could actually get off my ass to do more. I have been doing alot of shopping, but I feel like theres no way I'm going to finish by Wednesday. I dunno, I feel like I should have so much more done by now and it just sort of sucks cause I sit here on the couch and go, man I should be doing something. But I dont really want to do anything except sit here. Sure, playing a game is just sitting here but I don't know, I just don't want to.
In fact, I really don't want to be blogging anymore. I sat down with so many ideas and now they've just sort of all drained away.
I'm sure they'll come back to me at some point, and in fact I'm surprised that I blogged this far, let alone at all. So, I guess what I'm trying to say is, until next time, peace.
The Kid
~Platinum
Don't get me wrong its been fun, I just haven't really done what I wanted to do. And tomorrow I'm going back to my high school and then I've got a doctor's appointment. Joy of joys! So I wont have done any of what I wanted to do by 4 oclock tomorrow. Which really sucks. However, after I'm done this entry I will in fact be playing me some Okami.
Another reason why I really want to be playing Okami, or any video game for that reason is because I asked for alot of games for Christmas, particularly RPG's and I really want to beat the ones I'm playing in order to start the new ones. Like Persona 4 and Odin Sphere. Both of which are long games. What else.... all the devil may cry's except 4, Chrono Trigger, Luminous Arc 2, and I know there are still like 2 I'm forgetting.
So basically, what I'm saying is- I have a ton of fucking video games to play.
Specifically, before break ends I want to get like halfway through Okami, I want to beat Final Fantasy XII which I'm like halfway through, but I have a guide, so that won't be hard and I'm on the Final Boss in Final Fantasy X, so I should definitely be able to beat that before break ends.
So basically, FFXII and FFX will be easy to beat... Okami not so much.
But enough of video games, on to more... philosophical things. Heh heh, philosophical. We'll go with that.
So today I realized that I do some of my best thinking in the shower. Which I thought about in the shower. I also realized that if I do serious thinking in the shower, I take long-ass showers. Incredibly long showers. Also, I do some of my best thinking before I fall asleep at night. Maybe I won't be playing Okami tonight, maybe I'll just go think. Especially since its getting late.
Also, for the future, if I ever change my mind mid-blog again, its because it takes me awhile to write these things, so usually I'll change my mind a few times while writing an entry.
I wish something good where on tv right now, because then I'd actually be awake and into it, instead I'm feeling kind of lethargic and uncaring. My desire to do anything worthwhile has pretty much followed suit over the past few days. I don't mind sitting around reading but I just wish I could actually get off my ass to do more. I have been doing alot of shopping, but I feel like theres no way I'm going to finish by Wednesday. I dunno, I feel like I should have so much more done by now and it just sort of sucks cause I sit here on the couch and go, man I should be doing something. But I dont really want to do anything except sit here. Sure, playing a game is just sitting here but I don't know, I just don't want to.
In fact, I really don't want to be blogging anymore. I sat down with so many ideas and now they've just sort of all drained away.
I'm sure they'll come back to me at some point, and in fact I'm surprised that I blogged this far, let alone at all. So, I guess what I'm trying to say is, until next time, peace.
The Kid
~Platinum
Monday, December 15, 2008
Finals Finally Over
So, I'm done. And Physics was interminably difficult. I have no idea if that's the right word to use, but use it I shall!
Also, I may or may not have almost fallen asleep in my exam and wrote down something about DD from Dexter's Lab. Yea....
Luckily, I stayed awake and despite my difficulties I feel that I did alright on the final.
And even though its not even 10:30, I'm going to bed.
Maybe a boy genius will visit me in my dreams. Maybe not.
Who knows, I'm smart enough, maybe I'll meet myself.
The Kid
~Platinum
Also, I may or may not have almost fallen asleep in my exam and wrote down something about DD from Dexter's Lab. Yea....
Luckily, I stayed awake and despite my difficulties I feel that I did alright on the final.
And even though its not even 10:30, I'm going to bed.
Maybe a boy genius will visit me in my dreams. Maybe not.
Who knows, I'm smart enough, maybe I'll meet myself.
The Kid
~Platinum
Sunday, December 14, 2008
Blaaaargh
I have one thing to say today:
Sometimes, I hate my parents.
Back to studying
The Kid
~ Platinum
Sometimes, I hate my parents.
Back to studying
The Kid
~ Platinum
Saturday, December 13, 2008
Sleeeeeep
So, it's late, and I should probably be asleep. But I'm not.
Instead, I am here on my lovely wonderful blog.
So far, I have to say, I'm really enjoying keeping this thing.
And when I'm not actually updating I'm thinking about what I could, or most of the time should, be updating about. Crazy eh?
I don't really have much of great importance to say today. I tried to compile a list of things that I wanted for Christmas today and failed gallantly. I already made one for my Mom! What child can make two separate Christmas lists! That's crazy talk!
So... yea, i just compiled one actually, somehow. I'm not really sure.
Alot of Amazon hopping....
but its really late. So, until next time, I bid thee, adieu.
The Kid
~Platinum
Instead, I am here on my lovely wonderful blog.
So far, I have to say, I'm really enjoying keeping this thing.
And when I'm not actually updating I'm thinking about what I could, or most of the time should, be updating about. Crazy eh?
I don't really have much of great importance to say today. I tried to compile a list of things that I wanted for Christmas today and failed gallantly. I already made one for my Mom! What child can make two separate Christmas lists! That's crazy talk!
So... yea, i just compiled one actually, somehow. I'm not really sure.
Alot of Amazon hopping....
but its really late. So, until next time, I bid thee, adieu.
The Kid
~Platinum
Friday, December 12, 2008
Update! Also.... Clones College, I mean High
So, I definitely meant to update earlier... but I didn't. Sorry...
However, my finals went... well they went okay.
PS- I'm going to be using a lot of ellipses tonight... probably. See.
I didn't do that well in Calc. I got a C for the course, and I really wanted the B, but, I can say at least I tried my best. I really studied for the final and I really picked it up as the course went on. In the beginning I didn't do so well on the first test, but I did progressively better on the next two tests. I studied a lot for the final so overall I'm satisfied with my results, even if I did really want a B. My Japanese final went better than I thought it would so I was happy about that. I think I'll end up with a B in that. There's a large chance that I can get an A in Chem, so I'm pretty psyched for that. I should also get an A in my English class, sweet! What else.... Oh yea, physics...
yea, the class average is going to be a 50 or so, so God only knows how I'm going to do. I'll try my damnedest, but we'll see. Sometimes I do well, sometimes I don't so we'll have to see. On Monday we shall see!
But now, I'm going to do what the title of this article says and go watch Clone High, which is now probably my favorite show, followed closely by FLCL.
Watch them now! Now I say!
The Kid
~Platinum
However, my finals went... well they went okay.
PS- I'm going to be using a lot of ellipses tonight... probably. See.
I didn't do that well in Calc. I got a C for the course, and I really wanted the B, but, I can say at least I tried my best. I really studied for the final and I really picked it up as the course went on. In the beginning I didn't do so well on the first test, but I did progressively better on the next two tests. I studied a lot for the final so overall I'm satisfied with my results, even if I did really want a B. My Japanese final went better than I thought it would so I was happy about that. I think I'll end up with a B in that. There's a large chance that I can get an A in Chem, so I'm pretty psyched for that. I should also get an A in my English class, sweet! What else.... Oh yea, physics...
yea, the class average is going to be a 50 or so, so God only knows how I'm going to do. I'll try my damnedest, but we'll see. Sometimes I do well, sometimes I don't so we'll have to see. On Monday we shall see!
But now, I'm going to do what the title of this article says and go watch Clone High, which is now probably my favorite show, followed closely by FLCL.
Watch them now! Now I say!
The Kid
~Platinum
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Finals Update
I'm done one out of four, and I have another one in 3 hours. Joy of joys...
I'll update later.
The Kid
~Platinum
I'll update later.
The Kid
~Platinum
Monday, December 8, 2008
Finals... Finally
Okay so I didn't exactly blog after the track meet like I said I would, but then again finals start tomorrow and I have two of them on the same day. Really not looking forward to that. I'm blogging now in the time slot I've given myself for relaxing. I just got to the library after a Calculus review session that was actually pretty helpful. My professor isn't exactly that great so I was surprised at the usefulness of the whole thing. Also, and this is what I'm really excited about, after the review session I went to the B&N and got a new book! Pyramids by Terry Pratchett. I've come to the conclusion that he is one of my favorite authors now. I just read Small Gods by him and I'd highly recommend it. Reaper Man is by far my favorite of his works though. Pick that up for sure.
So, what else is there... I got to talk more to the The (Potential) Girl at the track meet on Saturday, so that was pretty cool. I think from now on I'm going to call her The Prospect. That seems a little more fitting.
Anyway, talking with her is just really, I don't know how to describe it actually. It just exists, and when I'm there I really enjoy myself. I just really like talking to her. It's not that we're both super interesting people, or we both have something amazing to say about the world (although I hope that this might help me realize that I do have something amazing to say about the world), I just really like talking to her.
Unfortunately, there's a kid on the team who's said he's into her too, which is kind of downer. Specifically because said guy is a complete and total douchebag and/or asshole. He's just really cocky and he doesn't know when to shut his mouth. But whatever, I can't force her to make a choice, especially when I find it hard to initiate a conversation with her. It's her life for sure, I just think it sucks that I might lose out to some asshole. Read Friday's XKCD and you'll get what I mean. http://www.xkcd.com/513/
However, if she were with me, she wouldnt feel like the ending turned out wrong. XD- now who's being cocky?
But I digress.
In other news, The Surrogate Roommate has re-introduced me to my love of superheroes. (However, Superman, Batman and Spider-Man still suck IMO)
I'm thinking of starting to write up a plot line for a superhero. I have the hero in mind (Heroine actually) and its a character I used in a D20 phoenix campaign- which is like DnD but with superpowers instead of swords. Best campaign setting ever.
But yea, all of this sifting through crazy heroes and X-Men has given me the itch to create something of my own. This happens every once and a while but usually I just procrastinate my way out of it. I sort of sit back and watch the itch build until finally I just say to myself "I don't have the time for it."
I do this with a lot of things.
Maybe though, just maybe, this time it will change.
After all, after Wednesday I only have one more final and it's not until Monday. I think I'm going to start something then and finish an intro story line over break.
That should work.
Anyway, I think I had better get back to studying.
Break time's over
The Kid
~Platinum
So, what else is there... I got to talk more to the The (Potential) Girl at the track meet on Saturday, so that was pretty cool. I think from now on I'm going to call her The Prospect. That seems a little more fitting.
Anyway, talking with her is just really, I don't know how to describe it actually. It just exists, and when I'm there I really enjoy myself. I just really like talking to her. It's not that we're both super interesting people, or we both have something amazing to say about the world (although I hope that this might help me realize that I do have something amazing to say about the world), I just really like talking to her.
Unfortunately, there's a kid on the team who's said he's into her too, which is kind of downer. Specifically because said guy is a complete and total douchebag and/or asshole. He's just really cocky and he doesn't know when to shut his mouth. But whatever, I can't force her to make a choice, especially when I find it hard to initiate a conversation with her. It's her life for sure, I just think it sucks that I might lose out to some asshole. Read Friday's XKCD and you'll get what I mean. http://www.xkcd.com/513/
However, if she were with me, she wouldnt feel like the ending turned out wrong. XD- now who's being cocky?
But I digress.
In other news, The Surrogate Roommate has re-introduced me to my love of superheroes. (However, Superman, Batman and Spider-Man still suck IMO)
I'm thinking of starting to write up a plot line for a superhero. I have the hero in mind (Heroine actually) and its a character I used in a D20 phoenix campaign- which is like DnD but with superpowers instead of swords. Best campaign setting ever.
But yea, all of this sifting through crazy heroes and X-Men has given me the itch to create something of my own. This happens every once and a while but usually I just procrastinate my way out of it. I sort of sit back and watch the itch build until finally I just say to myself "I don't have the time for it."
I do this with a lot of things.
Maybe though, just maybe, this time it will change.
After all, after Wednesday I only have one more final and it's not until Monday. I think I'm going to start something then and finish an intro story line over break.
That should work.
Anyway, I think I had better get back to studying.
Break time's over
The Kid
~Platinum
Saturday, December 6, 2008
So it's been a while
Indeed it has. No I have not forgotten about this here blog, I just haven't really had anything deep to say lately. I like blogging thats for sure though, it helps me get stuff off my chest. As you'll see by the time stamp on this entry its pretty late, so I won't be saying much.
However, I will say, that I got to walk back from track with The (Potential) Girl and that was pretty awesome. And she talked to me. Why is that important you ask? Because that means she knows my name! Woohoo!
Anyway, that's it for now, I'll blog more after I get back from helping with our track meet.
Peace
The Kid
~Platinum
However, I will say, that I got to walk back from track with The (Potential) Girl and that was pretty awesome. And she talked to me. Why is that important you ask? Because that means she knows my name! Woohoo!
Anyway, that's it for now, I'll blog more after I get back from helping with our track meet.
Peace
The Kid
~Platinum
Friday, November 28, 2008
Humor
So, as much as I'd like to say something philosophical, I'd instead like to tell everyone a humorous story.
So, I'm going to pick up The Lady Friend, cause her ride got super lost in my neighborhood, and I figured it would just be best if I met them at a place we both knew. So, I pull up to this three-way stop that's right across from the park in my neighborhood. The Lady Friend is stopped at the stop-sign at the stop on my right, so I figure I'll just make the right, turnaround and pick her up.
Well, as I roll up to my stop-sign, there's this lady there with what had to be her 4 grand kids and they're walking up to cross the street to go to the park. This would be completely normal, if it weren't for the fact that the lady and her grand kids were trying to cross on the side that didn't have a cross walk. All they had to do was cross to the other side of the street and voila, cross walk! But they didn't. So as I go to stop the lady just starts gesturing at me, and starts yelling. I guess I rolled past the line, which, when you're paying attention to someone gesturing wildly at you and yelling, isn't a big surprise. I couldn't really hear what she was saying because I was playing music, but I heard something about "you could've hit us!"
Whatever lady, all you had to do was take your lazy ass and your grandkids across the street and this would've never happened.
Anyway, I went and turned around and stopped to pick up The Lady Friend and the lady and her grandkids were now at the park. As soon as I get out of the car, she goes ballistic and starts yelling and cussing like crazy. I couldn't really hear her again but everytime she said something her grandkids would laugh hysterically, so I'm pretty sure she was cussing, and those kids were laughing alot. I just shrugged at her and laughed at her. SHe knew what I was doing, so she just yelled more.
As I was leaving with The Lady Friend, we drove by the park, and the old lady was still yelling, so The Lady Friend waved at her, and the old lady proceeded to flip us off.
HAHAHAHAHA. Stupid old lady.
Did I stop at the stop sign? Yes. Did I roll through some? Admittedly, I did. But I only did because she was busy yelling at me and I was paying attention to her.
And next time old lady, take your kids to the marked cross walk, and wait there. Maybe then you won't have to worry about your precious grand kids and maybe, just maybe you can teach them to cross safely instead of teaching them to do whatever they want and that cuss words are a good thing. Because all you've taught your kids today is that cussing is a big joke.
The Kid
~Platinum
So, I'm going to pick up The Lady Friend, cause her ride got super lost in my neighborhood, and I figured it would just be best if I met them at a place we both knew. So, I pull up to this three-way stop that's right across from the park in my neighborhood. The Lady Friend is stopped at the stop-sign at the stop on my right, so I figure I'll just make the right, turnaround and pick her up.
Well, as I roll up to my stop-sign, there's this lady there with what had to be her 4 grand kids and they're walking up to cross the street to go to the park. This would be completely normal, if it weren't for the fact that the lady and her grand kids were trying to cross on the side that didn't have a cross walk. All they had to do was cross to the other side of the street and voila, cross walk! But they didn't. So as I go to stop the lady just starts gesturing at me, and starts yelling. I guess I rolled past the line, which, when you're paying attention to someone gesturing wildly at you and yelling, isn't a big surprise. I couldn't really hear what she was saying because I was playing music, but I heard something about "you could've hit us!"
Whatever lady, all you had to do was take your lazy ass and your grandkids across the street and this would've never happened.
Anyway, I went and turned around and stopped to pick up The Lady Friend and the lady and her grandkids were now at the park. As soon as I get out of the car, she goes ballistic and starts yelling and cussing like crazy. I couldn't really hear her again but everytime she said something her grandkids would laugh hysterically, so I'm pretty sure she was cussing, and those kids were laughing alot. I just shrugged at her and laughed at her. SHe knew what I was doing, so she just yelled more.
As I was leaving with The Lady Friend, we drove by the park, and the old lady was still yelling, so The Lady Friend waved at her, and the old lady proceeded to flip us off.
HAHAHAHAHA. Stupid old lady.
Did I stop at the stop sign? Yes. Did I roll through some? Admittedly, I did. But I only did because she was busy yelling at me and I was paying attention to her.
And next time old lady, take your kids to the marked cross walk, and wait there. Maybe then you won't have to worry about your precious grand kids and maybe, just maybe you can teach them to cross safely instead of teaching them to do whatever they want and that cuss words are a good thing. Because all you've taught your kids today is that cussing is a big joke.
The Kid
~Platinum
A New Character for the Cast
So, now that I'm home and full of delicious food from last night's two delicious meals (I hope you all had wonderful and/or humorous Thanksgivings as well!) I think I need to post about something that has to do with home.
There's a girl here that I know, and like, but she isn't The Girl. So for those reasons, we'll call her The Lady Friend. Whenever I'm home we usually end up hanging out at some point (we will be later on today) and whenever we hang out I usually leave liking her alot more than I did before. The trouble is, I know it won't work out between us, especially now with the distance. In highschool, maybe it would have worked, I can't really be sure, and I was taken at the time. But I know that I like her and I think that if there weren't a few obstacles like distance and age in the way then I probably would call her The Girl.
The other thing stopping us, and I hate to say it, is that she has a history of not exactly being the most faithful of partners, and that doesn't work for me. And I know that if we were to date, it just would not work because of how far away I'd be, meaning I'd have no way of knowing what shes up to. I'd be paranoid as hell and my paranoia would be rationalized at some point I'm sure.
I hate to be so pessimistic, and she's such an awesome girl, but I don't know, this time I think I'm just being realistic.
Anyway, hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving!
The Kid
~Platinum
There's a girl here that I know, and like, but she isn't The Girl. So for those reasons, we'll call her The Lady Friend. Whenever I'm home we usually end up hanging out at some point (we will be later on today) and whenever we hang out I usually leave liking her alot more than I did before. The trouble is, I know it won't work out between us, especially now with the distance. In highschool, maybe it would have worked, I can't really be sure, and I was taken at the time. But I know that I like her and I think that if there weren't a few obstacles like distance and age in the way then I probably would call her The Girl.
The other thing stopping us, and I hate to say it, is that she has a history of not exactly being the most faithful of partners, and that doesn't work for me. And I know that if we were to date, it just would not work because of how far away I'd be, meaning I'd have no way of knowing what shes up to. I'd be paranoid as hell and my paranoia would be rationalized at some point I'm sure.
I hate to be so pessimistic, and she's such an awesome girl, but I don't know, this time I think I'm just being realistic.
Anyway, hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving!
The Kid
~Platinum
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Home
So, I'm home for Thanksgiving. I took the train with some friends to the airport and waited with them until they left. I had to wait a couple extra hours for my flight but I didn't mind. A kid who lives in my dorm was on the same flight as me, and we ended up sitting together. That was pretty cool, and it made the flight a little easier, but all in all I still hate flying. I'm still not entirely sure why I do, I just know that I do.
I get on the plane and immediately my chest tightens up, I lose my breath, and I can't breathe anyway. I start to sweat. It really sucks. I'm not really sure why, I just always feel like we're just about to fall out of the air. Just plummet. Fall, Fall, Fall. (Which by the way, is an excellent song by a band called Razorlight. Check them out sometime) I guess that stems from my fear of heights, but that doesn't rationalize me feeling that terrified of airplanes. I think I can attribute another part of it to the fact that when I'm on an airplane, I have no control whatsoever and I have absolutely no idea what's going on really at any point in the flight. That small stutter in the sound from the engines could just be the pilots slowing the plane down. Or it could be the engine exploding. I tend to think its the second.
Is that a completely ridiculous conclusion to jump to? You bet your sweet ass it is. But I do it anyway.
I think though the biggest reason though is that I'm really afraid of what happens if the plane were to suddenly drop from the sky. I have no idea what's on the other side. Am I religious? Sometimes, I'm Roman Catholic by birth, but I disagree with a few things, so I have my own beliefs. They're kind of hard to articulate and I know I won't do a good job now, so maybe that's a topic for another day. Besides, I'm being philosophical enough as it is right now.
But anyway, I'm just really freaked out by the whole concept of death. And since I'm always convinced we're right about to blow up I immediately think about dying whereupon I have a massive panic attack. I'm prone to those sometimes, but only when I think about really heavy stuff.
Also, for me its a numbers game. What can I say? I like math and I know the statistics. A major plane accident hasn't occurred in a while. So I always think that its my plane thats going to be the 1/the long odds.
That's enough soul searching for today. Maybe one day I'll get over this irrational fear, but another might just take its place.
In other news, The Best Friend might be coming over later, and if he does I'm really looking forward to seeing him. It's been a while.
Anyway,
I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
The Kid
~Platinum
I get on the plane and immediately my chest tightens up, I lose my breath, and I can't breathe anyway. I start to sweat. It really sucks. I'm not really sure why, I just always feel like we're just about to fall out of the air. Just plummet. Fall, Fall, Fall. (Which by the way, is an excellent song by a band called Razorlight. Check them out sometime) I guess that stems from my fear of heights, but that doesn't rationalize me feeling that terrified of airplanes. I think I can attribute another part of it to the fact that when I'm on an airplane, I have no control whatsoever and I have absolutely no idea what's going on really at any point in the flight. That small stutter in the sound from the engines could just be the pilots slowing the plane down. Or it could be the engine exploding. I tend to think its the second.
Is that a completely ridiculous conclusion to jump to? You bet your sweet ass it is. But I do it anyway.
I think though the biggest reason though is that I'm really afraid of what happens if the plane were to suddenly drop from the sky. I have no idea what's on the other side. Am I religious? Sometimes, I'm Roman Catholic by birth, but I disagree with a few things, so I have my own beliefs. They're kind of hard to articulate and I know I won't do a good job now, so maybe that's a topic for another day. Besides, I'm being philosophical enough as it is right now.
But anyway, I'm just really freaked out by the whole concept of death. And since I'm always convinced we're right about to blow up I immediately think about dying whereupon I have a massive panic attack. I'm prone to those sometimes, but only when I think about really heavy stuff.
Also, for me its a numbers game. What can I say? I like math and I know the statistics. A major plane accident hasn't occurred in a while. So I always think that its my plane thats going to be the 1/the long odds.
That's enough soul searching for today. Maybe one day I'll get over this irrational fear, but another might just take its place.
In other news, The Best Friend might be coming over later, and if he does I'm really looking forward to seeing him. It's been a while.
Anyway,
I hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!
The Kid
~Platinum
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
The Intro
Hello to anyone out there who reads this. I'm not exactly expecting a stellar following through any of this great experience. But let's go over the basics, shall we? Stuff like who I am, why I'm here, what I'll be saying, who'll I'll be referring to, etc. You'll catch on soon enough I suppose.
So... here goes
To start, I guess you can call me The Kid- but don't worry, I'll stick to first person. I'm a freshman in college, which will (depending on how you look at it) sadly, go unnamed. I'll probably be referring to this as "The School." I run track. Actually, I do field. I'm a pole vaulter. It's beyond fun, and, coincedentally, I am a huge fan of dirty jokes because pole vaulting is in fact one big sexual joke. Also, I'm playing Ice Hockey for The School too. Its only a club team, so I can do both. But practice is keeping me beyond busy. And last but not least I'll tell you for now that I'm a Physics Major. Crazy, neh? So I've been told.
Why have I started this? I feel that's an important question to answer before I actually get going explaining anything else. After all, you should probably ask yourself why are you here? At this blog I mean, I won't quite be getting that philosophical yet. But I digress.
In my freshman Writing/English seminar course (you know the ones that are all the rage now? they teach incoming freshman how to write?) we just had a unit on blogging and I wondered what it would be like to actually keep one. I wanted to know not just what it felt like to keep a blog, but also to be able to speak my mind whenever I wanted, for anyone interested to see. It's a cathartic exercise. I'm always telling myself I should be writing my thoughts down, just to get them out but I never do. I'm terrible at bottling up my feelings. But, here I am.
This should help.
Moving on.
What will I be saying? Pretty much anything that comes to mind. This is after all my blog. Some of this stuff may be deep, or may be superficial, I'm not really sure. I hope to have a healthy mix of both. The goings on of my life mixed in with my own musings on life.
So you're up to speed on names, here's who I'll probably be referring to often:
The Girl (I'll probably be talking about her alot)- The Girl doesn't actually exist yet, she's more of an abstract concept that represents the girl I'd like to meet and date. I'm terribly obsessed with finding The Girl, so I'll probably be discussing Her alot.
Right now, I have one in mind but I'm not so sure she knows I exist as more than just an entity she's sees every other day. We'll see how it goes. I'll keep you informed I'm sure. If I do ever find The Girl then she'll shift from a concept to a concrete object. But for now, she only exists in the realm of my dreams.
The Best Friend (I'll come up with an abbreviation at some point I'm sure)- This name speaks for itself. He's my best friend from high school- one of my only friends from high school actually. Unfortunately, he goes to another college, but we still keep in touch. I miss him alot. I'll probably be talking about him alot to.
The Fraternity- My fraternity here at college. No I will not be naming which one. Identity protection and all that jazz.
The Big Brother/ The Big- My big brother in my fraternity. He's basically the big brother I've always wanted. He's an awesome guy.
The Roommate- My roommate. We get along pretty well but I've got some stuff to say about him. We'll get to that eventually.
The Surrogate Roommate- A kid I've become very good friends with in my short time at college. He's practically my surrogate roommate and he's also my brother in The Fraternity. We're very different, its an interesting mix.
For now, I think that is everyone in the cast of characters that I'd like to introduce. There are more for sure, but I'll cover them another time. And as a sidenote, uncapitilized names are minor players in the days news. Maybe they'll be cool enough to get real nicknames one day.
So, I've covered what I said I would for today. Where do I go from here? I'm new to this game, and so therefore I'm not so sure. Let's see where my thoughts take me...
I think I need to rationalize my pseudo obsession with "The Girl."
You ever read Chobits? You remember the person just for me books that Chi reads? For me its almost like that.
I'm looking for the person just for me, and I've termed her The Girl. I even refer to her in conversation as such with The Surrogate Roommate. He laughs- says I'm crazy. I laugh too. After all, I'm just a teenager, why should I be so obsessed with finding the right girl for me?
A) I have a long life ahead of me
B) I'm going to be meeting a lot more girls in that span of time
But regardless of those two very compelling reasons, The Girl is still on my mind alot. I want someone to be there for me, to listen to my problems, to console me, to laugh at my jokes and tell me ones that are just as stupid. Maybe thats part of the reason why I'm here now. Maybe you're taking the role of The Girl (without any of the benefits) and I'm just too stubborn to actually admit it. I don't really know. But what I do know is that I'm concerned that I won't ever find The Girl. That I'll look and she'll never appear, or worse that I'll see her, but I won't realize she's The Girl until its too late.
Which brings me to my current situation. There is a girl that I sometimes feel I want to pursue. Sometimes I'm not sure though. I don't exactly have a lot of time for girls and therefore I dont really know if I want to engage in the pursuit. But when I think like that it makes me think that maybe I'm going to lose her, and then how would I ever know if the pursuit was worth it? It's a daily struggle. Sometimes I feel like she isn't right for, or that I'm not right for her and that I should just drop it. But then, how would I know. Maybe she's perfect for me and I just don't know it yet.
I hope to find out one day.
Maybe that day is sometime soon. Maybe its far off in the future.
I'll keep you posted on that and other things. Let's see where this glorious adventure takes me...
"The Kid"
~Platinum
So... here goes
To start, I guess you can call me The Kid- but don't worry, I'll stick to first person. I'm a freshman in college, which will (depending on how you look at it) sadly, go unnamed. I'll probably be referring to this as "The School." I run track. Actually, I do field. I'm a pole vaulter. It's beyond fun, and, coincedentally, I am a huge fan of dirty jokes because pole vaulting is in fact one big sexual joke. Also, I'm playing Ice Hockey for The School too. Its only a club team, so I can do both. But practice is keeping me beyond busy. And last but not least I'll tell you for now that I'm a Physics Major. Crazy, neh? So I've been told.
Why have I started this? I feel that's an important question to answer before I actually get going explaining anything else. After all, you should probably ask yourself why are you here? At this blog I mean, I won't quite be getting that philosophical yet. But I digress.
In my freshman Writing/English seminar course (you know the ones that are all the rage now? they teach incoming freshman how to write?) we just had a unit on blogging and I wondered what it would be like to actually keep one. I wanted to know not just what it felt like to keep a blog, but also to be able to speak my mind whenever I wanted, for anyone interested to see. It's a cathartic exercise. I'm always telling myself I should be writing my thoughts down, just to get them out but I never do. I'm terrible at bottling up my feelings. But, here I am.
This should help.
Moving on.
What will I be saying? Pretty much anything that comes to mind. This is after all my blog. Some of this stuff may be deep, or may be superficial, I'm not really sure. I hope to have a healthy mix of both. The goings on of my life mixed in with my own musings on life.
So you're up to speed on names, here's who I'll probably be referring to often:
The Girl (I'll probably be talking about her alot)- The Girl doesn't actually exist yet, she's more of an abstract concept that represents the girl I'd like to meet and date. I'm terribly obsessed with finding The Girl, so I'll probably be discussing Her alot.
Right now, I have one in mind but I'm not so sure she knows I exist as more than just an entity she's sees every other day. We'll see how it goes. I'll keep you informed I'm sure. If I do ever find The Girl then she'll shift from a concept to a concrete object. But for now, she only exists in the realm of my dreams.
The Best Friend (I'll come up with an abbreviation at some point I'm sure)- This name speaks for itself. He's my best friend from high school- one of my only friends from high school actually. Unfortunately, he goes to another college, but we still keep in touch. I miss him alot. I'll probably be talking about him alot to.
The Fraternity- My fraternity here at college. No I will not be naming which one. Identity protection and all that jazz.
The Big Brother/ The Big- My big brother in my fraternity. He's basically the big brother I've always wanted. He's an awesome guy.
The Roommate- My roommate. We get along pretty well but I've got some stuff to say about him. We'll get to that eventually.
The Surrogate Roommate- A kid I've become very good friends with in my short time at college. He's practically my surrogate roommate and he's also my brother in The Fraternity. We're very different, its an interesting mix.
For now, I think that is everyone in the cast of characters that I'd like to introduce. There are more for sure, but I'll cover them another time. And as a sidenote, uncapitilized names are minor players in the days news. Maybe they'll be cool enough to get real nicknames one day.
So, I've covered what I said I would for today. Where do I go from here? I'm new to this game, and so therefore I'm not so sure. Let's see where my thoughts take me...
I think I need to rationalize my pseudo obsession with "The Girl."
You ever read Chobits? You remember the person just for me books that Chi reads? For me its almost like that.
I'm looking for the person just for me, and I've termed her The Girl. I even refer to her in conversation as such with The Surrogate Roommate. He laughs- says I'm crazy. I laugh too. After all, I'm just a teenager, why should I be so obsessed with finding the right girl for me?
A) I have a long life ahead of me
B) I'm going to be meeting a lot more girls in that span of time
But regardless of those two very compelling reasons, The Girl is still on my mind alot. I want someone to be there for me, to listen to my problems, to console me, to laugh at my jokes and tell me ones that are just as stupid. Maybe thats part of the reason why I'm here now. Maybe you're taking the role of The Girl (without any of the benefits) and I'm just too stubborn to actually admit it. I don't really know. But what I do know is that I'm concerned that I won't ever find The Girl. That I'll look and she'll never appear, or worse that I'll see her, but I won't realize she's The Girl until its too late.
Which brings me to my current situation. There is a girl that I sometimes feel I want to pursue. Sometimes I'm not sure though. I don't exactly have a lot of time for girls and therefore I dont really know if I want to engage in the pursuit. But when I think like that it makes me think that maybe I'm going to lose her, and then how would I ever know if the pursuit was worth it? It's a daily struggle. Sometimes I feel like she isn't right for, or that I'm not right for her and that I should just drop it. But then, how would I know. Maybe she's perfect for me and I just don't know it yet.
I hope to find out one day.
Maybe that day is sometime soon. Maybe its far off in the future.
I'll keep you posted on that and other things. Let's see where this glorious adventure takes me...
"The Kid"
~Platinum
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